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On Not Repressing Feelings

 I read about panic attack long time ago. The symptom goes like this: "In the middle of the day/night I suddenly have a heart attack. I have chronic panic. My chest hurts so much. I have a hard time breathing. I want to scream, but I can't. Why do I panic? I do not know. It just happen." As weird as it is, I believe it is caused by repressed trauma. Something traumatize you in the past. It's so freaking terrible, that you just repress the whole thing completely. You cannot acknowledge to face it in the first place. But the thing about repressed emotion is, they haunt you. They will always return. They beg to be fixed. When they return to you, you might do your best to repress them again. Then they came back again. Then you repress them again. The cycle goes on and on.  Everytime it comes back, it gets worse and worse. To the point, where it become unmanagable. It evolve into the worst possible version of nightmare you can ever imagine ever. From there, begin series of...
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Personal Voyage #1

  It's just my personal story Whenever I ponder about something, my mind wander from thought to thought, and 1,5 hours pass by. Half of the time, they lead to entertaining thoughts. Imaginative things. Things like ideas for blog, business, art.. Half the other time, it reach plateau. That means my tank is already emptied. But I always keep brute-forcing the way, because i have no other source for insight. So I keep digging. You know what happen when you dig an empty bedrock? Burnout . Heat, tiredness, flame of hellfire that gave you heartburn. I realize in the end that digging insight from that place only result in me getting irrationality and anxiety. So, here we are. Me with my daily existensial crisis. "What's the point of living?" 🙂 The other time, I did meditation. They were really good. As weird as it is, I go through some transcending moments. Meditation leads to calmness, compassion, and inner peace. But that soon reach a plateau as well. Now, most of my medi...

Flow Psychology; Guide on How to be "In the Zone"

What is being in the Zone? Did you ever get so engrossed in a work, the whole world just dissapear in front of you, and 4-5 hours just past by? That's what psychologist know as flow psychology, or what we recognize as 'being in the zone' 😉 ✨✨✨ Flow Psychology; or How to Be in the Zone   ✨✨✨   Being in the trance,  Being in the zone,  Being in pipe,  Being in the groove, Being in the box,  are all kind of terms people use to describe the state of conciousness they feel when they transcend in their work and came out with an otherworldy quality of workpiece.  Psychologist label this state as 'Flow'. Flow Psychology is an ultra-state of conciousness first researched by Dr. Mihalyi Chikszentmihalyi in 1970. He was curious when looking at artist doing drawing. The artist that was doing drawing, he would just sit there for 8 hour. He do not eat, he do not drink, he do not take a sh*t, he do not even remember to move an inch. He is in trance mode where his ...

Dreamer, Ambitious, Eccentric

  (This is a short post is about types of people I like that often groundbreak the world. This post is subjective, mostly my personal experience. Feel free to tell about what you think in comment section ;) )   There are lots of types of people that change this world. Each of us represents a component, each dynamically changing the world. From all types of people that exist, there are 3 that I know that weave the construction of our world the most. They are; the Dreamer, the Ambitious, and the Eccentric. Let get start:   1. Dreamer People Description Dreamer are visionary people who always have their head living in the cloud. They're creative and intuitive. They're really kind, and cuddly. They spent a lot of time making fantasy and sci-fi, whether through art or real world invention. Connection with People Dreamer people can be individualistic. It does not mean a bad thing. It means they feel comfortable working by themselves. But depends on condition, they can work as...